please oh please can somebody tell me what

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means?
I'm stumped, i'm baffled... i'm vexed, i'm...

hai....
it's all over, again.

sometimes i wonder, whats wrong with me.

why does one not take me seriously?
thank god i got a group of friends that still be lieve in me.
but i hate the condesending tones they carry when they talk to me.

relationship wise, I have not had one since 4 years ago.
I realise that i just do not make the cut as the guy.
why? i don't know why.
maybe i sould chage my ways, what ways?
i'm too embarressed to amit them ; even if people point them out to me.

i'm ment for bigger things. i know.
but there seem to be some character in me thats kinda preventing myself from getting there.

I have an inner child in me that's here to stay.
thats struggling to grow up,
that sulks everytime i need to get something done.
that get naughty and out of control.
this child is angry.
this child is desperate
this child is sick of being cooped inside me.
this child does not want money
this child does not care if i'm fat of lazy.
this child just want to play
he just want to sleep.
he just want to do crazy stunts that can get me killed.
he's my innder child,
he's my alter ego
he's mr hyde , i'm dr jekyll

This child WANTS OUT!


i really hate that feeling in me. i hate it.
as stupid as it sounds, as much as i don't believe it and much that i won't amit it,
i hate love. and being in it.
cos i never get anything out of it.

people just sail away after some time.
no point waiting.
no point sending meaningless smses.
always onesided.

just when you think that everything's gonna get lucky and better on your side,
you realise that it's all gona crash down upon you.

have you ever get that sinking feeling?

the feeling that makes you sink lower

and lower



and lower...


and lower...


and lower...

and lower...

and lower...
and lower
and lower
and lower
and lower
and lower
lower
lower

lower

lower

and lower...




till, you drop.

have you ever got it?

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DO NOT go to NAFA.
don't even think about it.

why?
go find out yourself and you'll know why.