I don't know why am i doing this.
I'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i don't.
I never succede in such things anyway.
it now either fight or flight.
hope u understand.

I'VE DECIDED TO STOP SMOKING.

Oh, for those Of you who don't know, Yeah, I'm a smoker, not really though; It's the cigarett that smokes. I'm just a Sucker at the end.
Okay, I did not smoke that much anyway.
okay this is what triggered me to stop sucking on that sweet cancer.

Smoking: Not Smart
According to research findings released in 2004, smokers and former smokers did not perform as well on tests as nonsmokers. Four hundred sixty-five subjects had taken a test that measured cognitive ability in 1947 at age 11. They took the test again between 2000 and 2004. Based on the results, smoking appeared to cause a one percent drop in cognitive function. A possible explanation for this correlation is that smoking-related lung damage caused less oxygen to reach people's brains.

Source : http://www.howstuffworks.com/genius1.htm

yeah.

I'm living an extra 3 months.
I'm not supposed to be free now, and it seems that i'm living on borrowed time.
You don't know how it feels like to prepare for a whole new life, and realised that it's being postponed.
well, this experience changed me alot.
I felt renewed, reborned.
I have a new hair style, a new identity.
I start to think differently.
I become more "fucked up"
I start to use the word "I" more.
these 3 months Are mine to treasure.


I begin to realised how fucked up some people can be. Or how realistic.
It suprises me.
but at the end of the day, I realise that maybe, it's just me.
or the way i do things, the way i talk, the way i potray myself.
.unserious.
.tackless.
.immature.
.braggat.
woah, people like these can really get on your nerves. I happen to be all of them.
I can't change the way I am.
Cos i subconsiously still behave in my weird manners.
all i can do is to..

fuck. the army sent me home.

OMG, I'm feeling down. Not only I'll be enlisting late, but i might have to serve 2 years in the army. argh.2 years...
2 YEARS!
All beacuse of my friggin broken toe.

I went down To Pulau Tekong, like everyone else , head shaved, Big bags, solem face.. Whats diffwerent is that my Toe is all wrapped up. I was asked to see the Camp Medical Officer, Who actually gave me a 12 week rest period. Wth, I don't need 12 weeks! But he told me that I would be enlisted, and will be out of course and re-course 3 months later. but this will not affect my ORD date.

But when i went back to the enlistment centre, i was told that the company won't accept me! and i was returned my Pink IC and Not enlisted. argh!
so i'm trying to get down graded to Pes C, so i don't need to do any shit for Army.

I'll be Going down to CMPB for another Checkup to confirm my PES status and see weather i'm fit enough to join this batch.

if not, i'll be Trying Music & Drama Company as a soundman and DJ or SAFRA radio power98 as radio presenter or sound engineer. yup.

good luck to me!

WASSUP!
I'M IN THE ARMY.
see you guys in 2 weeks time!!! WHOO HOOO!

ding ding ding

wanna thank bryan for preparing me for the worst 2 years of my life
=D

BOOYA!
Alright, The new year is here. for 7 days already. Happy Birthday DOM.

and in around 4 days time, i'll be finding myself in and island offshore singapore, shaved bald, get shouted at and lose all my freedom and even my identity. Nope, i'm not going to Jail.
I'm going into the Army.
Tekong BMT!
well, i don't know if my experiences will be any different from everyone else but, i'll try to have as much fun yeah.
I don't know if it makes any difference cos i'm Pes A and posted to Enhanced Leadership BMT. That means my service term is only 1 year and 10 months. sounds nice, but doesn't that mean i'll have to go through more shit? aye...
Hopefully, i'll get slelected into Officer Cadet School. well, $1000 a month, sounds great to me.
or either that , i don't actually mind being a segeant. well, at least the camp is damn near my place!
well, as for being a private, or 'man'. I'll make sure i downgrade. cos i've gotta fractured toe.

my friend bryan said "fuck the amry, it gonna take my friend away from me"

"and how would they do that? i'm still chris, and i will be"

"Trust me chris, The army will change you"

sounds scary.
well, this is making me really nervous about whats gonna happen to me.
I've lived 4 years of freedom. regimental life is gonna get me.
and it's gonna get me good.

I'm gonna be 21.
I'm not a kid anymore


shit.



now i'm officialy obliged to be matured. well, sounds like a ball of fun.



well, so, army, here i come
when i'm 21,
hope i'll have fun,
not a pun.

cum.