Ah, I'm back to the blog where no one reads. Awesome!
I've been doing well lately. Better. Or that's what I want myself to believe. However I'm always thinking that I'm not doing well enough.
S's boyfriend, WK, of the same age as me, just bought a Mercedes C63AMG and what am I doing with my life? I have no property to my name. I'm not a millionaire yet. The plan was next year. I have 1 more year to go and I have only made like a tenth of what I aimed for.
I lost a potentially $100k budget job recently. I don't know if it's my negligence or is it my fault. Is it because I can't pull it off? The market is big here but yet it's small. It's so hard to make money.
Maybe I should buy a car to comfort myself. Idk. That would be a rather stupid choice. Being poorer while making people think you are richer. .
Well that's not an issue. Is it? Money can't buy happiness can't it?
A's still not talking to me. I'm still pretty sore about losing her friendship. It's like a part of me is missing. On top of that, I've lost Julius completely. I feel incomplete without them, but I guess it's time to move on. They are holding me back from my goals and my happiness. I should hang out with people that appreciates my time, as I have so little of it. It's really got nothing to do with time management. I believe I manage my time quite decently, I'm less late now. Used to be horrible with time.
A's not really holding me back, but rather ,I appreciated the time spent with her, it is not everyday you meet someone that you can share jokes with and they understand everything. It's not everyday that you can find someone who is frank with you and pick out flaws that you have that other and yourself cannot see. I am a better person now.
Happy birthday AW. You might not see this. (I really fucking hope you don't)
But have a good one. I'll probably text you, probably not. But yeah. Here's to friendship.
I've been doing well lately. Better. Or that's what I want myself to believe. However I'm always thinking that I'm not doing well enough.
S's boyfriend, WK, of the same age as me, just bought a Mercedes C63AMG and what am I doing with my life? I have no property to my name. I'm not a millionaire yet. The plan was next year. I have 1 more year to go and I have only made like a tenth of what I aimed for.
I lost a potentially $100k budget job recently. I don't know if it's my negligence or is it my fault. Is it because I can't pull it off? The market is big here but yet it's small. It's so hard to make money.
Maybe I should buy a car to comfort myself. Idk. That would be a rather stupid choice. Being poorer while making people think you are richer. .
Well that's not an issue. Is it? Money can't buy happiness can't it?
A's still not talking to me. I'm still pretty sore about losing her friendship. It's like a part of me is missing. On top of that, I've lost Julius completely. I feel incomplete without them, but I guess it's time to move on. They are holding me back from my goals and my happiness. I should hang out with people that appreciates my time, as I have so little of it. It's really got nothing to do with time management. I believe I manage my time quite decently, I'm less late now. Used to be horrible with time.
A's not really holding me back, but rather ,I appreciated the time spent with her, it is not everyday you meet someone that you can share jokes with and they understand everything. It's not everyday that you can find someone who is frank with you and pick out flaws that you have that other and yourself cannot see. I am a better person now.
Happy birthday AW. You might not see this. (I really fucking hope you don't)
But have a good one. I'll probably text you, probably not. But yeah. Here's to friendship.
